"I didn't decide to become anorexic. It snuck up on me disguised as a healthy diet, a professional attitude. Being as thin as possible was a way to make the job of being an actress easier . . ."
Portia de Rossi weighed only 82 pounds when she collapsed on the set of the Hollywood film in which she was playing her first leading role. This should have been the culmination of all her years of hard work—first as a child model in Australia, then as a cast member of one of the hottest shows on American television. On the outside she was thin and blond, glamorous and successful. On the inside, she was literally dying.
If I had to describe this book in a word, it would have to be horrific. Not that it is badly written, it is written very clearly, Portia's thoughts are conveyed very concisely, but the story that she tells is absolutely horrific. This is absolutely not a book to be read for pleasure, but rather to learn more about people and what they go through. To be in the mind of an anorexic, to see how ridiculous behaviour becomes rationalised, is just shocking, and rather disturbing too.
The things that Portia did to her body all so that she could believe that she was worthy of the fame and attention she had and hiding her sexuality; it is all just so sad. It is terrible that anyone has to go through this and I am just glad that she made it to the other side healthy and alive and I think that this book is an eye opener for anyone; allowing us into the mindset of an illness that kills so many.